Your pain is humming in my vertebrae

2020- ongoing

Stored in the waters of our bodies/

genealogical archives of forgotten wounds,

wounds formed into nests holding seeds of undreamed intimacies,

guidance shattered in whispers,

our grandmother’s lullaby.

This project is a collaboration with Byuka Krow and Dovydas Laurinautis.

Your pain is humming in my vertebrae is a performance-as-research project exploring transgenerational trauma and ancestral healing, within the context of post-Soviet countries.

Through performance, workshops and digital communities, we create poetic and ritual experiments, as well as games of body-movement study. We want to examine the potentialities of a personal and ancestral transformative process, when dealing with inheritances of: addiction, cycles of toxic relating and sharing affection, patterns of unhealthy identities and so on.

We allow ourselves to become altars of conscious knowledge, a bridge between the old ones and the future peoples. How do we make our bodies and minds, inviting spaces for understanding experiences that are not only ours and for the integration of their shadows and offerings passed on?

We are particularly focused on the transition between the two socio-political regimes: a blend of utopic and dystopic dreamlands, communist and capitalist ways of organizing life.

Through the lens of biological, psycho-therapeutic and spiritual perspectives, we are questioning: how do the unaddressed emotional responses to such intense ideological changes, violent revolutions, and abrupt needs to adjust to new realities of being, influence our collective soul? How is memory alive?